Not quite a year

Okay so it's been awhile... but not quite a year so I see that as a positive thing right?
I am trying not to panic about the crack in the pool and the horribly muddy backyard that we have although my dog Charlie's footprints are a continual reminder of how desperately we need to get some grass down and then I look out back and remember that the really dumb idea I had to try and regrade the yard myself using a shovel and rototiller really did not work and I cut a line to something and will only find out what it connects to will happen once we get the pool up and running which then brings me right back to the fact that the pool has a crack in it and is slowly losing water so because it is so low we can't have the safety cover on it so I start to panic even more. It is a cruel, cruel world I live in.
I just want to run away from it all and start over somewhere else.
Does anybody want to buy a house for more than its worth??